Seven years ago, I remember receiving visions of the shift in consciousness that humanity is now going through. One would think that being a light worker, an empath, and an angel intuitive channeling and receiving messages from spirit and the angels would have better prepared me for the challenges of this shift in consciousness, but here I was in shock as the universe kicked my ass (yet again).
Three weeks ago just before the start of the lunar eclipse and right through the Lions Gate on 08-08-18, I ended up with a bout of bronchitis the likes of which I have never had. I could not speak or breathe for twelve days and ended up in the emergency room three times. It seemed that the harder I tried to fight and control the bronchitis and MAKE it go away by numbing myself with huge doses of ibuprofen, breathing treatment drugs and steroids, the worse it seemed to be getting!! Immediately the old patterns surfaced, the stress, worry and anxiety and the disbelief and depression that I was so gravely ill; all of which made the bronchitis asthma and acid reflux worse. So I finally asked myself the usual suspect questions; What the hell is this really all about? Do I think I have a voice but perhaps I have not been using it the way the universe wants me to? Do I feel like I am suffocating in my corporate daytime job? Have I been burning myself out trying to work full time in the corporate world, and build and run my holistic practice on the weekends? Have I used my voice to engage in judgment? What is not in alignment? I then decided to meditate and as I did, I recalled something that my Wise Woman herbal teacher shared with us in class several years ago. She said that most people fight and embattle themselves with their states of illness and dis-ease. She suggested we “try to recognize a state of dis-ease is here to help you learn something that you need in order to facilitate the healing of your mind, body and soul”. She then went on and said, “Ask yourself the questions, what is it I feel I need to fight? What is it I need to control? What am I fearful of? What can I not let go of?” Once you answer those questions, tell your virus or dis-ease “thank you for helping me learn and understand how I can help my body and mind heal, what I can change and release and why it is for my highest good”. “Try to work WITH your state of dis-ease instead of battling it”. So, I decided to do just that. I thanked my bronchitis virus for coming to teach me how to drink more water (which I never drink enough of!), how to take a time out to meditate and just “be” without the chatter box of worry, doubt, fear and anxiety (this was really hard to do while sick). Having to lay in bed for five days also forced me to take notice and inventory of where my life is at and how my corporate job, holistic business and other commitments have been affecting me. I also looked at my diet and realized that I had stopped eating the whole nourishing foods and herbal infusions that I had been accustomed to. I was not going for my daily walks in the woods and talking to my trees or meditating. I was just trying to keep up with my endless “to do” list and commitments and obligations as a single working mom. I realized that I was desperately clinging onto the unhealthy comfort of my fears and my anxiety disorder I have had since I had my near death experience at age four, even though they made me feel awful! I looked at how I have been sabotaging myself and how I have allowed fear and stress to make excuses and paralyze me every time I want to take a step forward to grow deeper into my holistic business, my spiritual practice, healing my body from inflammatory dis-ease and releasing my past lifetime traumas and fears. I also realized that I have been afraid to just simply breathe deeply, exhale and relax!
As I continued to meditate, I called in my Archangels and as I did this, I remembered what they told me this shift is about; surrendering to healing, releasing all that no longer serves us and coming back home to our heart center and the LOVE within it. I then told the angels that I was ready to release all fears, worries, anxiety, doubts, traumas, burdens and karma that no longer serve me and are no longer mine to bear and carry. I asked them to take these energies to Source and to replace them with divine healing love and light. I also asked both Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene to send me their love and courage to continue to help me work on letting go of my fears that are holding me back and to help me strengthen my faith and belief by helping me come back home to the love in my heart space. I then spent a lot of time crying and praying. I did this for several days and went back to my healing plants to support my releases and physical and soul recovery. Slowly, I started to feel the tattered and torn security blanket of anxiety that I carried my whole life finally start to lift away from me. I continued my daily spiritual meditation and prayer practice and a week later, I now feel relieved, released and free from some of the intense angst that had plagued me. It is amazing how a simple state of dis-ease can change your perspective on life if you are willing and open to take a chance and work with that dis-ease instead of embattling yourself with it. Grateful for the episode of illness and what it helped me learn, I am now renewed in my strength and belief that I can work through the challenges that will continue to arise through this shift.
For those of you out there going through similar experiences, hang onto hope and ask the universe to help you be open to working with your dis-ease and life challenges in harmony, to help you achieve the healing and peace you need from a place of love and support and without so much fear and worry. Let‘s all help each other evolve and heal through this amazing shift in consciousness!
With love and light, Isabel